The Self-Stigma of Mental Illness Doesn't Have to Be Forever

September 5, 2014 Andrea Paquette

The self-stigma of mental illness negatively affected how I saw myself for a long time. But you don't have to live with self-stigma forever. There is hope.

Have you heard of the term self-stigma? Once you are diagnosed with a mental illness, many people feel that they are somehow tainted, mostly because of mental health stigma. Not only do they feel this outwardly, but also in how they perceive their internal sense of who they are as a person. It is not uncommon to experience shame of having a mental illness, and instead of knowing that you are a person who has an illness, you often forget you are not someone who is the illness. This is at the center of self-stigma.

Diagnosis of Mental Illness and Self-Stigma

Upon being diagnosed with bipolar disorder, I did not experience a sense of relief as many people do. People would ask me, “Don’t you feel better now, knowing what you have, so you can deal with it?” That would be the most logical claim, but on an emotional level, I was bewildered and could only think of my mother who has bipolar disorder. I thought of how difficult her life was and how much she suffered, and I voiced to a nurse that I was going to mirror my mother’s pain and strife with this illness. She reassured me that this was untrue because I was not my mother and I could choose to treat the illness differently.

My mother remained untreated for most of her life and ended up in psychiatric hospitals throughout my entire childhood. I recall feeling ashamed of my parent's mental illness and carried the guilt of this for a long time, but I now understand the fact that I did not know the effects that bipolar disorder can have on a person. I forgive myself now, and know that I did not mean to cause my mother any pain due to my lack of understanding. My mother is now a shining light in my life and with the proper bipolar treatment, she now leads a full and plentiful life. She is my hero and has helped me overcome the self-stigma of mental illness.

Finding a Light in My Self-Stigmatized World

Living with a mental illness can cause self-stigma, negatively affecting the way people see themselves. There is hope in overcoming self-stigma.

I lived with mental illness and self-stigma for a long time. Subsequent to an array of unfortunate circumstances, a light began to shine in my heart for the first time in a long while. As I was leaving the psychiatric hospital after a one month stint, I walked home, swinging my psych-ward plastic bag in-hand. I remember skipping to my new happiness that I was out of the hospital and I was excited for what the future held.

I was on a plane to South Korea, months later, to teach English for two years. Although I enjoyed my time there, I still struggled with not liking myself all that much. The self-stigma came in waves, as did the severity of my mental illness. It was not until I returned to Canada that I realized I was not the embodiment of this illness, and I spoke in front of 500 people at a seminar telling them I was not my illness, and that I simply just had bipolar disorder. That moment was defining and although I still struggle, my perspective has improved immensely over time.

I have experienced many side-effects from the bipolar medication, including weight gain and acne. I have taken the approach that no matter what my weight, I am beautiful, and people see the light in my heart, not my waistline. I give so much to other people and it is only recently that I have started giving back to myself.

When I look at myself in the mirror, I see my damaged skin and chubby chin, but I just say “I love you!” I repeat it over-and-over at times to remind myself that I am worthy of self-love and a happy life and so are you. Life takes us on a path and sometimes it is not the journey we had expected, but to love yourself is the most rewarding aspect of that journey. Put an end to self-stigma because of mental illness in your life.

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Paquette, A. (2014, September 5). The Self-Stigma of Mental Illness Doesn't Have to Be Forever, HealthyPlace. Retrieved on 2024, July 23 from

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Andrea Paquette
August, 29 2015 at 12:28 am

Hey Becky,
Perhaps take a deep deep breath and evaluate what is important to you. Your own self acceptance or the approval of your family, or? I feel for you and hope that maybe it is best to accept that no matter what we do, think or feel...there will always be people who will judge us and it is up to us to decide how we deal with it. I know people are going to judge me anyway and there is nothing I can do about it, so I just stopped caring and I live my life on my terms. Just hoping you are well and maybe this will help. xo Andrea Paquette AKA Bipolar Babe

August, 20 2015 at 10:57 am

I deal with the stigma from my family, or I feel as if I do. I feel as though my younger sister disrepects me due to my struggles and has developed a stigma towards those who suffer. She says that "I have a chip on my shoulder". Maybe I do. I am so tied of the judgement. Funny, she comes from the same gene pool. She is just too immature to see her own issues, or better yet, does not want to face them. I need to let this go !

July, 28 2015 at 3:14 pm

I know I am a person with an illness, but I don't feel that way. I feel that the illness is me. How am I supposed to make what I know what I feel?

March, 3 2015 at 7:20 pm

I agree Kristy!

September, 11 2014 at 11:58 pm

At the moment I feel like crap, because the bank manager said my partner can borrow $350K for a house without me and only $190K with me. I think self stigma is the outcome of the soft bigotry of low expectations and the hurdles with interacting with our disability and society. Its really hard to have a high self esteem when there are so many obstacles to experience your dreams. We need more role models living a recovery journey to speak out.

Critter Garden
September, 8 2014 at 12:18 pm

Both of these posts are about bi-polar. For me it was overwhelming depression. Society tells us we are "just lazy" and because I am smart I also got a lot of "you could be ok if you just WOULD". The mistakes I made from my illness made me feel "too stupid to live". It turned out that I ALSO had an anxiety disorder. When the science caught up, I finally got help that HELPED. The anxiety was treated, helping me make better decisions. And the things I learned in therapy helped me not blame myself so much. I'm still not "average", but I am WAY better than I was.

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