For me, psychosis involves auditory hallucinations (hearing voices and sounds) and is the most dangerous part of my illness. The last time I went to the emergency room for symptoms of psychosis, the doctor asked me if I heard voices, and when I answered that I was, he asked an important question, "Do you do what the voices tell you to do?" And unfortunately, my answer was yes. If you can't immediately see the danger in this scenario, try to think of it this way, imagine taking orders from something that is not real. It's alarming. 
My eating disorder relies on selective memory in order to maintain a stringent foothold in my life. Selective memories are enticing and compelling. They can also be quite dangerous. In fact, as I have come to realize, the presence of selective memory is often the difference between making continual strides in recovery or free-falling back into a cycle of relapse. What do I mean by this, and how am I learning to combat it? Let me explain.
In the 15 or so years that I've lived with depression, I’ve built a metaphorical toolbox of techniques and relationships that help me keep the darkness at bay. Two of them are my dogs. Here’s how these bundles of fur and slobber help me cope with depression.
If you're a single person with bipolar disorder, surviving can be hard. Last time I outlined why this is in a piece about being alone with bipolar disorder, but this time, I'm focusing on successfully dealing with being a single person with bipolar disorder.
I’m Sammi Caramela, and I’m excited to join HealthyPlace as the new author of "Trauma! A PTSD Blog." I’ve lived most of my life in survival mode, but it wasn’t until I was in my early 20s that I realized I was suffering from posttraumatic stress disorder (PTSD) from early childhood trauma. Learning why I was suffering was crucial to healing from the extreme anxiety and depression I coped with on a regular basis.
Because I grew up with the label of shy instead of anxious, there are a lot of things I didn’t realize I do because of anxiety, and no one ever recognized them as anxious behaviors. It took me reading about them somewhere else or hearing someone else say them for the lightbulb to go off.
Two weeks ago, I embarked on a massive life change. Moving away from the town where I got sober to begin a new chapter flipped my world upside down. I had to face my fear of change and part ways with the people, places, and things that kept me grounded for three years. My comfort zone was demolished, forcing me to start afresh. 
Fear is an emotion I used to view in a negative light. However, understanding how fear influences my emotional state has helped me to harness its power and use it to my advantage. In certain situations, overcoming fear helps me achieve my goals, contributing to feelings of accomplishment, happiness, and a more vibrant life experience.
I have learned so many important lessons and revelations in the course of my interminable healing from anorexia, but one stands out above the others: I cannot take a day off from eating disorder (ED) recovery. Sometimes I want to, of course. Sometimes I'm convinced that enough time has passed since my life was at risk—or I have enough experience and self-awareness at this point—to ease off the accelerator and simply coast for a while. But I really can't take a day off from ED recovery.
Yesterday, I noticed an eyelash on my finger. I asked my husband Tom if wishing on eyelashes amounted to magical thinking, even though I already knew it did. I just wiped the eyelash away instead of wishing on it. I am trying to stop most forms of magical thinking.

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I often feel overwhelmed by a change in plans, for example, another person joining a trip when I had planned on only two of us or a sudden unexpected change at my job when I was mentally preparing for something else.

I was today years old when I learned this is a symptom of ADHD. I really like change. I just tend to freak out at first.

What helps me is, voicing my frustration and contradicting feelings "I know this is a good thing, but I was mentally preparing for something else and I am feeling overwhelmed. I'll be okay. Please don't take it personally." Also, reminding myself that things usually work out for the best.
Natasha, I too have these triggers. I have always called them black manic episodes?? But I do have 10yrs of what was lost memories of molestation by workman on the farm. So I hear your point.
At nearly 60, I’m now so numb and so physically also in pain, that trying to stay alive feels like I’m a burden as I become more and more socially unacceptable, which leads to more poor emotional responses and decreased self esteem.
The times of feeling myself are so few and far between I may need to consider a drug change. But I remember the last one I didn’t think I’d make it back from. I just want to go home to Jesus, but now feel I’m not even saved. Hmmm gotta love a crappy gene pool hey
bjbirdie Renken
Dear Sister we are but one in the same, my husband 9 years my senior, I'm his 5th wife and he is my first husband it's been 23 years of what you speak and when I thought help came it was CPS to take them away and then I was charged with neglect for failing to remove them from a violental environment. There is never a win win always a loss because they are sneaker, and deceitful beyond a normal person's capabilities and victims just keep getting victimized from the man and from the very programs that are to be a safe haven are just traps to make a broken person jump through hoops on broken legs and Spirit. I'm sorry & I understand your struggles... wish I didn't. Peace be with you Sister. ✌️😑
Kellie Holly
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Sammi Caramela
Thank you, Ken! I am excited to continue my journey with HealthyPlace and spread my wings. So glad to have you following along!