I Hate My Depression Symptoms - Ergo, I Hate Me

April 13, 2014 Liana M. Scott

My depression symptoms are a big part of me and I hate them (What Are the Symptoms of Depression?). Ergo, I hate a big part of me. Wait! That can't be right, can it?

Depression symptoms can negatively affect your quality of life and I hate my depression symptoms. However, even though they are part of me, I don't hate me.

Depression doesn't define me. The symptoms of depression don't own me. Still, these symptoms, often times, control how I live my life and I hate that. They can make or break the quality of my life and there isn't much I can do about that.

Let me start by saying that my self-esteem took a big hit today. Today was "try on your spring wardrobe" day and nothing fit! I've been dreading this day all winter but knew I had to face the inevitable. This just added to the burden of keeping myself from drowning in the depression pool. Picture a hippo with only it's eyes and ears showing above the water line. That's me.

I Hate My Depression Symptoms: They Affect My Quality of Life

The weight thing obviously affects my self-esteem, which is really only a part of the depression symptoms package. While chastising myself for letting myself get this way, I realized the symptoms of my depression play a huge part in it overall. I have no energy and I sleep a lot. I have low motivation, have a hard time concentrating and get frequent headaches.


Okay. So here I am, writing about all of this and wondering what the heck I'm going to do about it?

I Hate My Depression Symptoms: They Make Coping Tough

Coping with depression makes coping with life difficult. But there are things I can do, like creating attainable goals, that help me combat depression symptoms.

I feel a little better already.

Depression is an illness with a plethora of symptoms. I have depression and my symptoms are with me every hour of every day. I hate my depression symptoms, but I do not hate myself.

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sandi wheeler
January, 12 2015 at 12:24 pm

I have been in this depression for over a year. I wish the mental health system could create new drugs for peope like me.

April, 17 2014 at 9:34 am

I just realized that when I eat a lot I am depress. I did not know that...

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Liana Scott
April, 17 2014 at 9:35 am

Me too, Barb. Me too.

Elina Ponting
April, 15 2014 at 8:51 pm

Oh my God!!!! How much pain do you have. I think, there are several reasons of your pain. I just only want to say that keep your mind free from everything, and don't take stress. After doing this, you will feel better.

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Liana Scott
April, 17 2014 at 9:37 am

Hi Elina. Sometimes, the pain is terrible. I wish it was as easy as keeping my mind free from everything but as anybody with depression knows, it's not that simple.

April, 14 2014 at 5:50 pm

I have a heard time with unstanding what is going on around me all the time I feel like on one can see me and the pain that I am in I feel like I am looking outside in like I ant there I am some one elses looking in ay me

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Liana Scott
April, 15 2014 at 4:49 am

Hi Jade. I am so sorry for your pain. There are a lot of helpful resources for you here at I hope you feel better soon.

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