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Symptoms of Dissociation Aren't Always So Obvious in DID

March 15, 2017 Crystalie Matulewicz

Dissociation symptoms seem black and white in the DSM-5, but they aren't so clear-cut in real life. What are dissociation symptoms really like? Find out here.

Dissociative identity disorder (DID) and other dissociative disorders go hand-in-hand with signs and symptoms of dissociation. You can find these signs of dissociation included in many lists, and in books like the Diagnostic and Statistical Manual for Mental Disorders, Fifth Edition (DSM-5). But symptoms of dissociation aren't always so black and white. The reality of dissociation goes beyond the obvious signs and symptoms of dissociation that you read about. So what is dissociation really like?

Symptoms of Dissociation Occur on a Spectrum

People experience dissociative symptoms in different ways. Some dissociative symptoms are severe, while other symptoms are mild. Sometimes dissociation can interfere with daily life, while other times, people are able to function on a normal level from day to day. Dissociation doesn't always mean dysfunction, despite what diagnostic criteria might imply (Dissociation Because of the Pain of Bipolar Disorder).

People with DID are regarded as having severe dissociative symptoms, but that is not the case at all times. They can also experience milder symptoms of dissociation, even for extended periods of time. It doesn't mean the person is cured or doesn't dissociate; they just dissociate in less obvious ways. There is a spectrum of dissociation, and you can experience the low end, high end, and anywhere in between.

Dissociation Symptoms Aren't Always About Losing Time

When people think about dissociation, they tend to think about the more obvious symptoms like memory loss and dissociated identities. But dissociation is more than that. Dissociation can be spacing out for a few minutes, not just a few days or weeks. Dissociation can be forgetting what you did this morning or even five minutes earlier, not just forgetting chunks of time in your childhood.

With DID, there is a belief that when you are dissociating, another identity is taking your place. That isn't always what happens. Dissociation can occur without switching or having other parts take over. You can dissociate and still be you. You may not even realize you're dissociated.

My Obvious and Obscure Symptoms of Dissociation

I have DID. Sometimes when I dissociate, I experience a "blackout". I have no recollection of what happened, other than what people tell me. My other parts take control and I fade out for a while. I act differently, sometimes even talk differently (Understanding Dissociative Identity Disorder Alters). These arDissociation symptoms seem black and white in the DSM-5, but they aren't so clear-cut in real life. What are dissociation symptoms really like? Find out here.e the obvious signs of my dissociation.

I also experience dissociation in a different way. Some days I'm here, but I'm not really here. I go through the day in a blur. I'm sitting down, I'm hearing words, I'm working, sometimes I may even respond, but inside I am lost in another world. I'm not really taking in whatever is going on around me. I'm dancing the line between two worlds, the past and the present, the inside and the outside. I live in both at the very same time (Coping with Dissociation in PTSD Recovery).

That is my reality, the obscure dissociation that many people don't see. I've become so accustomed to it, that sometimes I don't even realize it's dissociation. It's just normal for me. And people don't always understand it. They tell me I'm here right now, present and speaking, and I am. But I am also in that other world, a safer space for me to be. It's still dissociation, just not the textbook version.

There's no such thing as simple dissociation. Dissociation is complex, it's varied, it's experiential, and it's unlimited by what you see in books.

Just because your signs and symptoms of dissociation may be different, doesn't mean they (or you) are any less valid. Life isn't always so obvious, and neither is dissociation.

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APA Reference
Matulewicz, C. (2017, March 15). Symptoms of Dissociation Aren't Always So Obvious in DID, HealthyPlace. Retrieved on 2024, July 20 from https://www.healthyplace.com/blogs/dissociativeliving/2017/03/signs-and-symptoms-of-dissociation-arent-always-so-obvious



Author: Crystalie Matulewicz

Crystalie is the founder of PAFPAC, is a published author and the writer of Life Without Hurt. She has a BA in psychology and will soon have an MS in Experimental Psychology, with a focus on trauma. Crystalie manages life with PTSD, DID, major depression, and an eating disorder. You can find Crystalie on FacebookGoogle+, and Twitter.

Ariane
October, 12 2022 at 3:01 pm

I experience a form of dissociation I have not quite found any describtion of. In some very high stress situations I vanish, but not like daydreaming of being somewhere else, just gone as if I was a record someone paused and everything else, even my body do move on without me. My body is hollow, apparently, going through some routine movements like rising with everyone else at the end of class but not responding. I have no control, am losing time, but as far as I know, there is no alter fronting. I got the describtors robot or zombie for it. No speaking, no sign I hear anyone, I supposedly pulled away when someone tried to put an arm around me.....
I do not have DID, probably, but I could have had. I show lesser forms of typical symptoms like being aware of different personality aspects and having intense inner, sometimes outer dialogues, acting vastingly different at times and not always following a logic there, but not quite seperat enough to count as alters. Feeling like I do not have control over my actions at times, often having contrary impulses, inability to process what I see or hear occasionally, generell numbness....
I also suffer from somatic symptoms, depression, anxiety, moodswings, insomnia, get triggered by people, mostly men, without understanding why or being able to find out what sets me of about them specifically.
Also, disordered eating and mild selective mutism.
I had a childhood trauma I was not aware was bad. I was genuinely unbothered by what I knew happened as a child until way way later.
It was not that terrible though, so given the very intense, and nonsensical given the context, symptoms, that only showed way later in life, I assume that most likely something worse had happened I repressed the memory of...
Mostly I am just confused over the symptoms I show

Michelle
February, 24 2020 at 2:42 am

This is so me ! Everyone says " She getting better" to my husband , I say " Yeah I'm just great, you guys have no clue , I don't even see you anymore" hence I've lost all my friends and most family since being diagnosed. My Alters come and go as they please I am trying to figure out on my own how too control them. I do a lot of my own self-help with guidance from my amazing Psychiatrist and Counselor. I'm glad I'm not textbook alone !!

Kishore
March, 20 2017 at 1:39 am

This blog is really very informational. Thank you for sharing.

Catherine
March, 16 2017 at 10:49 am

Thx

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