Tips For Partners Living with Dissociative Identity Disorder
Living with dissociative identity disorder (DID) presents unique difficulties, whether you're the one that has it or the person who loves the one living with it. I can only imagine how frustrating, confusing, even painful it must sometimes be to have a partner with DID.
I've witnessed how challenging it often is for my own partner and, if some of the comments I've received here at Dissociative Living are in any way representative, her experience is typical. But it's also largely ignored. Partners of people with DID don't get that much support or encouragement, primarily because only those who've been there can truly understand (Caregiver Stress and Compassion Fatigue).
3 Tips for Partners Who Love Someone Living With DID
As someone with dissociative identity disorder, my perspective is different than my partner's. I think that's what makes hers so important. Significant others are in a unique position to offer viewpoints and ideas that might otherwise be overlooked. When I asked my partner what she'd say to someone in a relationship with a person with DID, this is what she said:
- Know and maintain your own boundaries. You can't support others if you aren't supporting yourself. You're going to let your partner down sometimes. That's true in any relationship. When you let someone with DID down, the ramifications can be far-reaching and surprisingly painful. It may be tempting to make your own needs negotiable in order to ensure peace and stability. But that will backfire eventually by sowing the seeds of resentment and creating an unhealthy imbalance. Knowing your limits, and making the hard decisions required to honor them is vital. Believe me, sacrificing yourself won't heal your partner's wounds anyway.
- Nearly impossible, but try to learn how to not take it personally. You're going to be the villain to some no matter what. People with DID generally have trust issues that nearly incapacitate them in relationships. It's not unusual for protective alters to attempt to sabotage intimate relationships. That's not about you.
- Learn as much as you can, but remember all systems are different. There is no way to be in a relationship with someone with DID and not be profoundly affected. Living with dissociative identity disorder is just plain hard. It only makes sense to educate yourself. Not for your partner's benefit, but for yours. It's awfully hard to cope with something you don't understand (3 Ugly Truths about Dissociative Identity Disorder).
Living with Dissociative Identity Disorder Is A Choice for You
Those of us with DID don't have the option of walking away from the illness. You do. For my part, I'd like to remind you that no matter how it feels, DID isn't forced on you. You can leave, or choose not to get involved at all. Those of us with this disorder would spare you if we could. So when it gets rough - and it will get rough - please remember this: living with dissociative identity disorder is a decision you're making, not something we're doing to you. Blame us for our choices and behaviors ... not for having DID.
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Gray, H. (2011, January 17). Tips For Partners Living with Dissociative Identity Disorder, HealthyPlace. Retrieved on 2023, June 2 from https://www.healthyplace.com/blogs/dissociativeliving/2011/01/for-partners-living-with-dissociative-identity-disorder
Author: Holly Gray
Hello, I am currently talking to a guy with D.I.D., he just recently told me. When we first met, he only told me he had ADHD, we got to know each other a bit, which went by fast actually. The next thing I knew he was face-timing me and telling me random things that happened to him just moments before. Our conversations were good ones, but they were shorter than most. I originally thought it may just have to do with ADHD and his work schedule because his job is very stressful. I was okay with that. But then, about two weeks after we started talking, he kind of went ghost. Like leaving me on delivered for more than 24 hours, sometimes 48 hours. This started happening more frequently. He would come back of course, and let me know that he was busy with work. I believed him because, I trusted that he was still interested, because I hadn't been blocked yet. Most of the time when I speak with a guy I vibe really well with, I end up getting ghosted by the guy, and usually, I wake up to me being blocked. But, with him, that wasn't the case. So I became very confused. I wasn't sure if he liked me. I constantly was overthinking, and I was very hurt. There are instances in which guys I've spoken with have kept me on the sidelines and attempted to treat me as a second option. So automatically my mind went there. So of course I was hurt, because I thought this is what that was. During these semi-long periods of no communication, I did feel lonely, but he always came back, and one day when he did, I was frustrated with him. I didn't say anything bad to him, but I was very dry at responding, and he noticed my change in behavior. I told him that I get frustrated with him sometimes and that I wasn't sure what this "relationship" even was. I told him if communicating with me was too much for him, that he could let me know, and I would understand. That's when he told me about therapy. He said, with work and therapy every day he felt like his personal life was being invaded, and that he didn't want to sacrifice anything. (our relationship) I told him he might have to and that's fine, I wanted to give him the space that he needed. But, he said, "I'm not letting that happen", that's when I asked him "How do we make sure that it doesn't" and he said "Bend the rules to my own needs" After that conversation, I was under the assumption that he was going to try harder to be more available. At the time I didn't know what it was for, but I still tried my best to be more patient with him. But I became overwhelmed with stuff going on in my own life, and I wasn't sure if we'd be a good fit anymore. I had been afraid to confront him because I didn't want to seem desperate, or annoying. But finally, those urges and that hurt overpowered my fear of confrontation, and I texted him. I asked him if he actually liked me, because I constantly felt like he didn't, I felt alone. He told me he didn't know what was wrong with him, and that he was sorry, and wished he could tell me everything that was going on with him. I told him to take his time because I didn't want to force him to communicate with me. I want him to feel comfortable enough to tell me. Yesterday, that's when he told me he had D.I.D. I googled it, and read the official definition of it, and my heart broke. Because I felt so bad for constantly bothering him about communicating. It also got me thinking about what could have possibly happened in his life to trigger him. Your mind starts to wonder you know. So it was a very emotional moment and still is. After telling me, I asked him if he thought therapy was helping (I hadn't done any further research at this moment), he said he didn't know if it was, and that one night he went to sleep and then woke up driving his car. I didn't know what to say to that, and I expressed that. Then I began to research and started reading more about D.I.D., after researching for a bit, I expressed to him that I felt like I understood him better, and he appreciated that. We haven't spoken since he told me, and to be honest I'm not sure what to say. But I do know I want things to work, but the thing is we are long-distance, and I want to get to know more about him/his alters. I want things to work out, and I want to let him know that I'm here for him. That's why I'm doing everything I can to learn about D.I.D. I haven't found many articles about long-distance relationships, and I'm a bit stuck. What can I do to let him know that I'm here for him and that I don't plan on leaving.
I'm really glad I found this site. If anyone here is still active and willing to read my story, I would appreciate any advice!
I'm 18 and my partner is 19. I'm currently working and they are in college. We are also long distance and can't reach each other physically without a plane ride. Still, we got together a year ago and have had a really great and stable relationship so far. We visit each other as often as possible and they lived with me and my mom over the summer so they didn't have to stay with their abusive parents. I love them with all my heart and my mom loves them too. I fully intend to marry them one day, but not for at least a few years. I've never been in love with anyone until I met them and they make my world seem like a brighter place. I know I mean the world to them too and it makes me so happy.
Unfortunately though I've been struggling to handle their recent discovery of having either DID or OSDD type 1B. They're not diagnosed as they want to go to a psychiatrist that specializes in DID and it's hard to find one in their area because of the stigma around it and the area they live in is very religious. And their insurance doesn't cover them where I live so it's hard to find the right person and the money for it. When they first started to consider that they might have DID it was because they had a "little" alter that they gave a different name to that I was already familiar with and was good friends with. So at first it was really easy for me to accept.
The more they researched things and the more they thought about it they realized the presence of a few more alters. I liked all of them when they told me about them but my relationship with one of them besides the sort of main host I've been dating is more complicated. I found out that during our relationship there was a lot of co-fronting between that alter and the one who goes by my partner's name. I am very monogamous and struggle to form romantic connections in the first place, plus I have some jealousy issues. But because I initially fell in love with both of them when I thought they were one person, I still possessed those feelings for both of them when I found out they were separate. The main host was obviously very in love with me and would even get a bit jealous of the other alter I had feelings for. However that alter doesn't feel the same way about me, which I was only recently told. They still care about me I think since I provide so much support for the main host and they are a protector. They're also an alter that holds most of the sexual trauma and is hypersexual and flirty because of it. They're also polyamorous. It hurt me a lot when I found out they didn't feel the same about me. Also I get really jealous of their closeness with an online friend of theirs. This friend is honestly really nice and supportive and has been really good for all of the alters, but it just makes me feel more insecure and like I'm being replaced even though I just want to be happy for them. I kind of messed up and had a fight with this alter and now they don't want to talk to me. I feel bad and I miss them but I know I'm not ready to mend things when I still have all this jealousy. They just want the freedom of being able to have sex with anyone they want and not be controlled by anyone else, but I just can't make myself feel okay with that. I know it's hypocritical of me since I like two of the alters but the thought of either of them with someone else hurts so incredibly badly.
I also have mental health issues and am starting to suspect I might have BPD. It would explain a lot for me and why I am so irrationally afraid of being replaced and why I lash out at the people I love when I simultaneously am screaming at myself to stop. I started going back to therapy but I've only had one session so far to establish things, and it feels like things are happening way too fast for me to deal with them. Not to mention my partner gets jealous of the other alter and wants me to let them have freedom so they can have me exclusively. I feel so stuck and conflicted and we've never struggled like this before. I need advice from people who have been through this. I want to be supportive, but it's not always easy.
Should I let the alter be able to hook up with whoever and try to bite the bullet? Should I stand my ground and set it as a clear boundary? Either way someone suffers. If anyone can offer advice or comfort or even just relate to this it would mean so much to hear from someone.
I don’t know if this is the best place to do this, but here goes.
I am in a long term, 3 year though long distance, relationship with someone who has recently realized they have DID. They always seemed to flipflop between emotions and were very touchy at points, but I am a very similar way, having BPD and anxiety and being very sensitive to certain things as well as switching between extreme emotions at the drop of a hat, so of course, I always try my best to be completely understanding and forgiving. It helps a lot, and we work through almost all of our problems together this way. However, there has been a problem with cheating and monogamy in the past. All four of the alters claim to love me and are okay with me dating all of them, though all of them, including myself, claim to be monogamous. I fear I may be doing them a disservice calling myself that, as one of the alters has explained to me that I’m dating four different people which of course I know but is difficult to wrap my head around. That is not the issue however, the issue comes in my anxiety. I don’t know if I could have a life with them if they for any reason develop an alter that either doesn’t see me romantically, sees someone else romantically as well, or hates me outright. I know the body is not theirs, and if I could press a button and give them all their own bodies I would in a heartbeat, but I can’t, and the idea of seeing their body, even if I know in truth it isn’t them, with another parter hurts more than I can explain in words.
What can I do? Are my concernes valid? One of the alters seems upset that I ‘don’t understand’ they’re all separate and that the body isn’t theirs. I do understand that, but the idea of said body having relations with anyone else still makes my skin crawl. It hasn’t come up at all and is not an issue. But it is still a fear.
If I said anything wrong or see anything wrongly or don’t understand anything please correct me too, im trying to learn about DID as well for them, so any education is appreciated. Thank you.
I love all of them so very very much. Each of them are their own person and each of them expresses their love for me in a different way. We recently had a big thing (concerning cheating and another loved, yet monogamous, partner of an alter.) and an alter is in I guess what you could call ‘stasis’. I haven’t seen them in a while and I miss them so so much. I feel so incredibly lucky to have four people who love me so much, but recently they had a new alter (who I never met) form who was immediately removed due to them being harmful to the system as a whole. They’re the reason my mind began to spiral. I am open to the idea of polyamory, but only in the case that every member of the group loves eachother (i.e. i also love the potential other partner and they love me) as otherwise I fear I will become too jealous and/or spiral at the thought they may want to leave me for said partner. (Which is another concern of mine, an alter wanting to leave our family in the future and move out, hypothetically as living together has been a thing we’ve all discussed many times)
Anyways, anything to ease my worries or explain things to me would be greatly appreciated.
Much love and deepest thanks.
I’ve been dating an individual with “high functioning DID” (their words) for about 9 months. I would say I’m in a relationship with 4 of them and love them all very much and have a very different relationship with each of them. I am polyamorous and so these relationships have worked for me and how my brain functions. In other words, I haven’t felt like I am sacrificing, settling or giving too much. Some days have been hard, others so happy- just like any relationship. But the highs are high and the lows are low. One alter is a self prescribed alcoholic and frequently has mental breakdowns and she has been out a lot recently. I feel like she is only stable when I am with her. On top of this, a destructive alter has been re-emerging for the last 2 months or so and has been preying on the alter previously mentioned who has frequent breakdowns. I have tried my hardest to talk to this destructive alter and reason with them, ask them what they want, make friends with them. They have said that their goal is integration- all alters merging into one. Even though this is the conventional form of healing for people with DID, this alter is going about it in all the wrong ways. He is “taking” alters away out of malice, not for the end goal of healing. Anyways, I don’t know what to do about this. Everything was going so great until this alters emerged. But I have to come back to the fact that this alter is a part of the ones that I love; they are all connected.
On top of all of this confusion on how to navigate these relationships, the first alter mentioned, had one of her mental breaks when I wasn’t able to be with her and decided to go to her moms house and tell her everything, which is a rule of the system to hide themselves from their mom. When this was going down I was encouraging of it because I thought the mom could help in my absence as I was afraid for their safety honestly. Anyways, their mom did not accept them, didn’t understand, didn’t want to understand their DID. This feeling of rejection from their family led to an intense mental break. I feel like I can’t leave their side now. I don’t know what to do. I want them to get better, but I don’t know how that is possible honestly. On top of this, I have my own dreams and aspirations. I don’t know how to balance my happiness with loving them. I don’t know if that sounds terrible. Don’t get me wrong, I need them too. I love them and would be devastated without them. But I don’t know how to have both even though I want to.
Is anyone else dealing with anything similar- difficult alters, unstable alters, difficulty balancing your personal lives and love lives?
I would like to know how you proceeded with this. I am in a relationship with my dear boyfriend for 4 years and it's even a long distance relationship so it makes it a lot harder for me to interact and help them. My boyfriend has DID also. If you need to speak to someone who is in a similar situation as you, you can contact me on my email firstname.lastname@example.org
I don't know about your partner but I am very honest and sincere with my partner, especially about his disorder and me talking to others on online platforms about this and he feels grateful and feels like I am there for him so we both might be able to help each other, if you and she wishes
Hi, my partner recently has been diagnosed with DID. For the last few months we’ve managed and I get along well with most of the other Alters. I just miss him. And sometimes i feel more like a caregiver than I do a partner. We talked about having kids together but they have some littles already and I’m not sure if that’d be too much on our plate. It was a big dream of ours. Anyone out there have a family with DID? How did you manage?
I am in the same exact place. I am dealing with protective alters right now, and for 4 out of the 6 months of this relationship, I didn’t have to. It’s been so hard. I really miss him, and I am having to decide if I can accept the fact, if something were to happen to me, I can’t depend on him to be there for me. Because things aren’t even bad for us… it is mostly all coming from previous blackouts and relationships that have caused me to have some really bad anxiety and shutdowns, in turn, brought the protective alters to the surface. So, ultimately, does it ever end. I really love him, and I accepted the diagnoses, when we first got together, and I am willing to do what I need to make it work, but is it going to ever be enough… probably not. I am starting to realize that being to comfortably separate my personal feelings from the situation is going to be the best option, and therapy to learn the best way to deal with him.
I hope this is still active. I stumbled upon this page. I have been hoping, searching, pleading for support from people who actually understand what I go through. I have been with my wife for 12 yrs. When we met she told me she had DID. I knew what it was... but didn't understand... not really... what that would mean for me. My wife has over 20 personalities. Most are nice and just fine to deal with. But there are a few that are very emotionally abusive. I often feel like I am going crazy. I have not been happy for a long time. It is so hard for me. If anyone I k eq told me that they were going through what I was I would tell them to leave. I have been very close a few times . But have always been pulled back in. Because I truly do love her. And I know she, the primary personality, loves me too. And I just have a hard time throwing that love and 12 yrs away. But I just don't k ow what I am supposed to do.... am I supposed to stay and just endure.... or do I leave and break both our hearts.
Your situation sounds a lot like mine. It's hard to find support, but reassuring to know we're not alone. Please feel free to reach out to me. I would love to share our stories and . My email is email@example.com.
Have any of you had to come to terms with your spouse as the host loving you but the alter wants someone else. I think the alter possibility started last year but my wife has had a DDLG affair for the past 5 years and now they've learnt about DID is saying there convinced its that. I feel so hopeless and I adore my wife but I'm struggling with this so much
I am so sorry.
I wish I had something helpful to say, but my husband (who has DID) believes he is bi.
He's attracted to men and has acted on his impulses, "to scratch the itch."
Sometimes I am enough, but sometimes I'm not.
It's so hard not to feel inadequate.
I too have a female alter who what’s to have a man and I’ve never let her have her way and I never will I’ve always been straight but the female alter hijacks me when I’m having sex with my girlfriend and when that happens she says I seem distant but that keeps me in a relationship… it’s hard but since I’m already suffering I will fight through it for her and not give in to what she wants… it’s just terrible though but that what I’ve been dealt with and still find happiness
I would really love to chat with you about this as I feel like I'm in a similar situation with my husband who has DID. His alter doesn't care for me and is overly sexual. We are separted right now because of it all and I'm so lost on what to do.
You must remember that each part has held a part of his past trauma, do u know his story and all parts of him! If he suffered sexual abuse maybe he is severely disoriented and if he was honest with you from the beginning which shows a great deal of trust then take joy in knowing you are truly loved from the inside out because most systems of DID are not that open or trusting!
How are you? May I ask where you're at now? I can only imagine how difficult things must be.
Your story resonates with me and reminds me of a friend. Would you be up for a sometime?
Hi jen do you mind emailing me id love to talk i just dont know where to start hope this finds you well i didnt want to just email you i thought you might think i was some weirdo so my email is firstname.lastname@example.org
I hope you find this eventually im in a very similar situation i want to stay but i want to leave so badly:(
i am still suffering distress after witnessing the 4 yrs 8 months abuse of my client online i being alerted 5 times by child alter 2yr old Bethie following her persecutor alter removing me for fear i would reveal her seeking revictimization . It has destroyed my life ruined my daughters wedding and graduation . The only plus is that her abuser did a Jeffrey Epstein and tributes and condolences to family of a man that ruin my life threats from police and social services deleting evidence
I think I may be married to someone with some form of DID. I know he experienced trauma as a kid but I’m not sure the specifics. I always thought he was so inconsistent- one day he would like something and the next he wouldnt. It always left me confused and walking on egg shells. I started to see a therapist and she asked me if he had been diagnosed with DID or a personality disorder. After I read about it DID, I’m still not sure. He’s been stressed with work lately and the blank stares are becoming more frequent. I also find that I’m having to repeat myself more and more lately. I’ll tell him a story only to find that he can’t remember me telling him. At first I thought he was trying to gaslight me and was trying to make me go crazy but he wasnt. He really couldnt recall what he even did on that day. Sometimes he wears glasses and sometimes he says he doesnt need them. It’s a bit confusing and hard to understand. Especially when he doesn’t and will not talk to me about what he’s going through. I don’t know how to ask him or talk to him about it.
I think making a plan with your therapist on how to bring it up is a good idea.
OSDD 1B is mayne something you should look into if not did
People with DID, please don't be afraid to have a relationship or get married if you should find a person who really loves you and believes themselves strong enough to be with you.
In 1987 I fell in love with a lady with DID. I met with at least 3 separate personalities I encountered over the following 18 months. Two were loving, kind and very much in love with me.. particularly the primary personality that seemed to be dominant most of the time.. The third was rarely seen.... destructive and dismissive at first, believing I held her back from what she wanted and needed.
One night she came home at 2 AM, cold and stiff. I held her and she started crying, demanding that I punish her , hit her. I held her tight, kissed her and told her that I could never hurt her, I loved her. I said that no matter what had happened that night, no matter what she had done,. it didn't matter, I loved her. And I meant it completely without reservation. I held her tighter and she held onto me tighter,. I felt waves of love from this personality. as she sobbed herself to sleep.
The next morning, the happy loving partner personality seemed completely unaware of the events of the previous night... and I may have made the biggest mistake of my life by not discussing it with her... but she seemed so happy I didn't want to hurt her.
The dismissive personality I believe came to love me after that night, and i watched as she fought to change her destructive ways over the next few months.
Several months later I asked the primary , loving personality to marry me. I saw the joy in her eyes that then shifted to concern and quiet. She hugged me tightly and desperately, we kissed.... but would not answer Yes or No. That was the last night I ever saw her... she disappeared and a friend told me that she said she would never return to me... she felt she was protecting me and she never wants to harm me..
People with DID.... Please know that if you meet someone out there for you, who can love you so strongly and completely ... that says they wanting to marry you, eyes wide open...
Don't run from them... trust that if they say they are strong enough to weather anything that happens, and they love you completely. without reservation....... you and they both deserve the chance at long term happiness.
Only time and trying will tell... do not give into fear of what may happen... find out what does happen.
Tysvm. My 27yr old daughter has DID. She is convinced no one can ever love her. Your story has tears on my face. Tragic & extraordinary. 5 personalities at this time And as her mother , I love and care for every single one of them. Every person has free person has every aspect of a different personality a different style a whole different person and every 1 of them are loved by me. Some of them do not accept it sometimes sometimes but I always say that if you are inhabiting the bodies that I gave birth to by default you become my child lol sometimes it works sometimes it doesn't. It's so scary because I just had to bring her across the United States out of an abusive relationship where where her So was about was abusing her six-year-old altar . And I can't stand it I can't Believe how sick people can be and now I know I'm having a hard time I just want to keep her forever so she is safe. People with this illnessPeople with this illnessAre we more likely to be abused and being taken advantage of. But you know what? I wouldn't change her for the world bro I would only make it more workable for workable for her and safe. As a loving mother,I feel like I just keep failing at keeping her safe. So I just keep loving her and do everything I can to help and to understand and to learn. Thanks
These DID beings need lots of hugs, kiss them on there forehead and say love thee.
Times will be hard but one will feel the love, threw there food threw there what ever.
Be open mind. One will see the light.
We make the bed while other sleeps, more time for hugs. They need lots of hugs. Her and I have been together 8k hours minus 1.5 months do to hospital visist. Since February 22, 2020.- March 14, 2021. When one sees pearls of tears go down face, it’s real. I don’t know ASL, (SM). one will go the distance. She is undiagnosed. Diagnosed with schizophrenia which one sees is not true.
One loves quotes. We write each other quotes.
The fist quote she wrote is, “everywhere everywhere.”
When the crowns on all the checkers face your end watch out.
Ones first date married , her last date was Avery a guy. My first date is Avery and she is a women. 3k old. Love one Bear Bella Perzel.Avery one is strong. Love one always. Serve thy community serve thy state serve thy country serve thy world. And serve all in the universe for the universe holds the flower together in our hands.
Lots of hugs to all,
Well i tried educating myself but by the time i did she had already shifted to another personality and broke up with me. "mental stalker" was the noun she gave me when i tried explaining it.
For those of you who are struggling with D.I.D or know someone who is struggling with D.I.D, there is an amazing YouTube channel called DissociaDID dedicated for this disorder.
My partner was diagnosed with DID a few years ago and while it has been hard for both of us, this channel has really changed our life. It's an educational channel run by an individual with D.I.D. A lot of the questions that I had and a lot of questions that you have in this forum is answered in these videos. The channel also focuses on helpful tips for those struggling with DID.
If you have a chance, I would recommend checking this page out (and no, this is not sponsored). I'm just an individual who has experienced the pain and hardship that comes with D.I.D and want to do my part in helping those who are going through the same thing.
This is the link to the channel: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC6kFD5xIFvWyLlytv5pTR1w
Hi, I'm apart of a system, I'm not diagnosed with DID but I most definitely have symptoms, I am 16, and am only really hearing bad stories. Should our system just not date?
Hey! I know this is late, but I'm currently dating someone with DID. It hasn't affected our relationship and I love them more then anything. I know you've been hearing bad stories but you will find someone. (For context, I am not a system and we figured out they had DID about four months into the relationship when another alter fronted for the first time.) And the question about whether your system should date is entirely up to you guys. Good luck <3
Hi, My name is Shawnesta and I've been with my husband for 20 yrs now. He recently came out about his DID to me, our boys and some of the family. I knew he had multiple personalities but I never realized it until he came to me with his alter, Pixi. Him and Pixi are both in love with me but they get jealous of each other if one spends too much time with me than the other one. She enjoys doing all the things women would do. In example, painting her nails, shaving her legs and putting on make up as well as women clothing. My husband works at night and comes home in the morning and Pixi comes about and does these things and he wakes up like this and gets upset about it. I've mentioned to him about getting some kind of help with all of this and he refuses to cause he don't want to be medicated. I'm confused at this cause I know he needs help but I don't want to force it.
Anyone want to talk who’s in a relationship with someone with did who gets cheated on and maybe abused mentally or physically I’d love to talk to someone who’s going threw what I am I feel so alone and almost and scared and tired
You can email me any time email@example.com.
I would like to talk with you!
I recently got put of a relationship with the one I love. It is so hard to want change but powerless to help. My SO had 12 parts amd only 4 wanted me in their lives....
Hi, Jon Wynn. Thank you for reaching out to the community. I hope you find what you need. Take care.
I have been with my husband 15 yrs he has always been a lot to handle but I always assumed he was just a bad guy and I was a mug for staying with him. 2.5yrs a go he had a breakdown and since then he has been diagnosed with DID, I still don't fully understand alot about it but I am left with the nasty taste of all the lying and deceit over the yrs. He is seeing a counselor and had under gone psychotherapy, he is medicated(although I don't think correctly). How do you live with something you can't physically see but that effects you everyday. I used to think things would get better but I think I am kidding myself. We have 2 children which this impacts on but also which effect my decision for what to do for the best.
Hi, Jessica. I really appreciate you taking the time to comment and reach out. Thank you for being part of our community. As someone with DID, I understand firsthand that loving me comes with some difficulties and challenges. In the beginning, my husband didn't know how to handle me either, but just yesterday we celebrated 20 years together. I say this to let you know things can get better with time. It might be advisable if you continue to educate yourself on the disorder. HealthyPlace has great resources that can answer your questions. I might also seek counseling if I were you in order to learn how to cope with the feelings your husband's DID has brought up. Best wishes.
I am a 50 y/o man whose 2nd wife was AMAZING... and asked me to marry her.... she was stunningly good-looking, ever-giving, kind, interesting, fun, funny, hard-working, and beautiful in every way... except one. This may be a duel-diagnosis thing, because she was a light-switch drinker... and at first I just thought she was a bad drunk who processed alcohol differently than most... but after 6 years of marriage, I think that her alcoholism, and subsequent meltdowns of alcoholic psychosis (while definitely a problem), was a mask for something larger. We are now in divorce proceedings, and I love the girl I married, but talking to her is an Abbott and Costello routine... she has loosening of associations, and confuses actual events with things she heard about.
I know exactly how u feel. I love my girl wholeheartedly but that doesn't always come easy. Some things happened with her and my best friend when a new alter came out and no one knew. Unfortunately I caught her messaging and found out that way. But we are so strong now. A had to realize that it wasn't my girl who did that. It was the alter, and we grew a lot. Try to be strong, it's not easy maki g it work.
Glad you sorted it out. The same happened to me, but eventually it happened three times. After 14 years together I now have the feeling that I can't take it anymore. Don't know how to fix the broken trust anymore.
I'm glad to tell you my experience. I have been together with my wife for 14 years now and we have two kids (twins 4 yo). Last week she betrayed me for the third time so I definitely know what you must be going through. Please be free to send me an email firstname.lastname@example.org take care!
hi ashley! know this is months late but im involved with someone who has did and this is something im struggling with right now. are you still with this person?
ashley, i am somwhat currently in a relationship with someone where i have yet to be physically cheated on but my partner sends texts back and forth with multiple men, sending and receiving nude photos and videos.. its extremely hurtful and nebody knows that she is DID. after her second suicidal attempt i noticed that in her journal / everyday notebook, there was a difference in her hand writing. they diognosed her at the hospital with bipolar. i knew something was not right with the diognosis as i have worked in the behavior field for many years. this was a recent suicide attempt and she is still in the hospital and being released in 2 days. i asked her if she knew anything about disassociation disorders and she did not. i explained to her that i may know the reason why she never remembers messaging these guys nasty provocative messages. i told her to tell the therepist she talks to in the hospital what i think and gave her more info on why ithought of this and how my thoughts lead to believing she is DID. itturns out that same day (yesterday) she was diognosed with disaccociative disorder. i was right. and i had labeled her as either a lier or knew she had some sort of ashisia relating to a disorder. i am both releaved that she truly didnt remember these concersations and did not mean to hurt me. as the same time i am hurt regardless. i am the only person here for her. her only friend. her family shames her and her kids have disoned her and wont talk to her. she is 46 and i am 30. i broke up with her after the first suicide attempt. and then realized that she has no place to go.. but on the streets. nobody that remotly understands her, it amazes me how she got this far with the issuses that she has and how alone and unsuported she is. she is activly seeking medical help and trying to get better only because of me as i am the only person that has let her into my home and has helped her get a job and is there for her. if i leave... i fear she will attempt to take her own life yet again. i feel trapped and yet i want to help her. i just wish somone els knew her like i do and wish she had a friend. not just anyone but someone who understands her as i do. that way the burden is not all on me. i hope that through therepy and the fact that i am knowlegeble in behavior health that we can have a relationship. but idk. its hard and i can relate to you although there is no physical abuse, there is mental abuse. i hope to hear a response of your situation as well and how you cope.
Yep it rings alot of bells. I have a friend who is impossible because he has comorbid disorders. One of his alters is a protector that believes he is famous and I'm not good enough for him. Imagine my confusion after his core personality told me once that I was the one! I wind up believing wholeheartedly like a stupid, then waiting around for nothing. he is aware he needs help and has been to rehab, but somehow he prefers this delusional life. I know it is more than Peter Pan syndrome when other persecutor alters come out. one is a cruel sadistic mean and paranoid drunk! I can't see what this polar opposite has to do with the shy sensitive man who is good in intimate settings, soft, relaxed loves to cook, tell stories and go for long walks together, buys me flowers and remembers my favorite chocolates. It is a beautiful nightmare!! Like going with doctor jekyll and Mr. Hyde! I suggest do not invest anymore in the relationship. Find someone your age. I know how bad you feel. At one point I believed he could get better because I wanted to believe it. I got along with jekyll famously and couldn't imagine my life without him. It's just to much for me to get jerked around like that and then watch him abuse others as well.. I have personally witnessed his behaviour causing two grown men to cry as well as his ex girlfriend. Unless he gets therapy I don't want to be next in line. It's not worth the effort!! The behaviour is immature and irresponsible and will only make you more miserable. Just run 🏃
Hi my name's Joey Young, I'm also in a relationship with a woman who I know has some sort of personality conflict. She literally has no other person on Earth to house feed or look after her best interest as she's literally incapable of well life if that makes sense. She has the most profound and dilusional ideas of how things in life are. Recently I've installed camera's and now have vídéo and audio of her and other men having sex talking beit in other voice's usually but she claims it isn't her? I'm gone it's her hére alone. Can her true self really believe thís? It's ongoing. Please tell me íf I'm just being lied to or if she really needs help. Thànks
I am right there with you. Currently in a relationship with someone with DID. It has been an extremely manipulative relationship and I had to shed so much tears. I’m still confused as to what to do. We have kids together. 3 beautiful little girls. Some days I just want to run and not look back. He is extremely codependent on me. His alters have been silent for the last few months but the one I had kids with is now dormant. So this alter that has been in love with me hasn’t shown face for 7 years and keeps pushing that on me like it’s my fault. Everything to him is new and I’ve changed over the last 7 years. It’s starting to really break me apart and I’m at loss as to what to do. He hasn’t told anyone else besides his therapist about his DID. I’m the only one. I’m feeling suffocated. This website was referred to me by my therapist. It says we have a choice. That we don’t have to stay with our partner. But just like you. Im the only one he depends on. If I leave that’ll break him even more. But im starting to loose my mind along side with him. His other alters abused me mentality. And to be quite frank. There’s been a lot of trama from that. Yet this alter that has been out lately wants me to try to forget the past. 10 years of mental abuse is hard. And to flip the switch and shower me with love and compassion. It isn’t easy. I wish it was. But seeing the same face that caused me trama is hard.
Hi Ashley, I have experienced this situation, sadly, several times. And I get yelled at and angry outbursts directed at me for questioning, for crying and I have been really triggered into rage, (mostly verbally, I haven't been physically violent in decades, but I do break things - usually Glass :( You are most welcome to get in touch with me, email@example.com Namaste Anjali M
I’m just starting to see a guy with DID. One day it’s all about how much he likes me and wants to date and then he goes ghost for days and then he tells me he is trying to protect me, then tells me to leave him alone but when I do I get a text in the middle of the night telling me to leave him alone and let him die in piece. The final text was I’m not in a good head space leave me alone I don’t want you caught in the cross fire. What am I supposed to take from this?
Hi ashley. Ya i was looking for the same. Lets chat
Hi, I am in a relationship for 5 years with someone who has DID. As far as I know he hasnt been diagnosed with it but he has mental issues and sees a therapist regularly. I dont know what his diagnosis is. When Ive asked him he flat denies that he has DID but some of them do have different names. And some don't like me. He has emotionally abused me plus he does try to physically hurt me when some are present. Is it really possible that he doesn't know he does these things? And am I in danger from one or more of his personalities? Sometimes he is so charming and sweet and Sincere and I know he means it at the time. But then he will change and say and do creepy or hurtful things. I care about him but I cannot handle the constant wondering if I am safe here.
I believe that for the past 3 years that’s what I experienced. It’s broken me and driven me to the verge of becoming extremely depressed and thinking suicide . Not understanding what and why things were happening.
Hey I don't know if you'll even dealing with this still but I feel so alone myself too... Add me on anything. Snap: rowanramsey2019 Discord: R3CON#0930 Insta: rowan_parkour Email: firstname.lastname@example.org
You can msg me anytime I’m currently dating someone with D.I.D & lastnighr was the worst, I love him and I want to be with him and help him through this to make things not blow up so much. But idk I’m just starting my research I’ve noticed 3/4 different people